I dont wanna loose you..

A year passed by since I put my post...Don't know what happened to me during this phase...I am totally changed person now. I gained so much and lost that may things. starting from My dadi, my nani, Tyson, Ramakant uncle, Datta uncle. This post comes from the bottom of my heart, I don't know why I became like this.....Least bothered, less caring....an obnoxious WEED a totally lost person.....My close friend thinks that I ignore her .....I am sorry mate if you think that way and I do not blame you for the same, having girlfriend was one big thing which I had hidden from you...but for how long..u came to know about that and definately i cannot imagine how upset you were that time. I have still not forgottent those bitter words which came out from your mouth which are pinching my ears till date. "Ketan tune muje nahi bataya, Shayad you do not consider me a close friend of yours....Ever since them I was taken by a storm that why i did not tell you....Kept asking my self, WHY KETAN.....kyon....I got the answer ***Don'T KNOW***What was the thing which was stopping me, but i have made up my mind I will tell you some day...Just waiting for that day...please dont ask when..!! Please Matta I am still here yes I agree that things which I did were incorrect and that will remain in your mind....but please never in your dreams think MERA EK DOST THA !!!! Wo abhi bhi hai.....You are one person that I will never forget even if I forget my self...Aunty felt bad because agar koi apna aise karta hai to bahut jyada dukh hota hai...We can talk on that because I am not living my way and not just that when ever I come to your house I do not see the SMILES which i was so very used to...Aunty feels bad seeing me...cannot see he charm on her face....I still remember you people hiding my bike keys, playing pranks, Aunty saying...aa gaya kaminey......kaise soong leta hai tu chinese ke smell....i still remember the week before you left for HK tune meri FILA ki T shirt ka GOWN banaya tha....But i still wear that.....I have still kept that shirt of mine which you tore at Jampore Beach......REMEMBER.......I still owe you one pair of specks....

Now All because of me i cannot feel that comfort at ur place.....I have no one to blame....frankly speaking Aisa ek din nahi jata hai ki I do not remember you people...just don't have the courage to face you.....Reading all this matta you would think now what's the use....ITS TOO LATE......Well that depends on you ?....Maine ye one and a half year me bahut kuch khoya hai......I dont wanna loose you..